A seed

There's nothing worse than someone planting a seed in your mind, as it will just continue to grow and grow and grow. 

Once again, I've made a mistake and fallen for someone (I know, I moved on quick...) and it's not good because she likes someone else and is practically with them, and she also moves away to uni at the end of this week.

It's not good because we get on so well and I don't feel awkward around her and it's just not good.

So once again, I am a bloody idiot. 

The inevitable

So the inevitable happened. 

The girl I used to like and thought was so perfect and amazing, well I don't have the same feelings for her as I used too. 

I've just read my last post now and it feels like such a long time ago since things were so good between the two of us but recently things have seemed different and tense. Mostly it is probably my fault. 

I don't know how long I've not liked her, it is only recently, but it feels so strange, so weird that feelings I once had are now virtually nond existent. 

As I lay here in bed thinking about my life and everything, I currently feel nothing. Not happy. Not sad. Not angry nor upset. It just isn't right. I never thought this day would come when I wrote this post, I honestly thought that it was different with her. But no. How stupid of me. 

In my 19 years and 5 days of life, I have been in a relationship for 6 months of it. And that's one girl. I honestly don't know why I bother anymore. I start getting feelings for someone and get attached and then I'll think I may have a chance when I really don't. It is upsetting, and stressful, but that's life. 

If life was easy we would all be bored with nothing to do and nothing to work forward too.