Have you ever fallen in love, and, kinda wished you weren't?
Like not because of who you're in love with
But because of your lifestyle?
I have.
When ever I like some one I always think its great at first but then I start to doubt it all and over think everything and then I think no I won't tell her because she won't like me back
Well I really want to tell the girl I like that I like her
But I don't want to loose her as a friend
Like if she saw this post and it explained it all to her or maybe one of the other posts that I've written about her
But I really want to be with her, but I know that because of my line of work I won't get to see her often and I don't want to put her through that, not that she'd want to be with me in the first place
It's really bugging me, it makes me feel sick
I really like her
And I want to tell her, but I don't want to loose her because of it
I suppose some one could tell her for me, but thats cowardly
Maybe someone could drop a hint?
Or I could find out what she thinks of me from one of her friends
Meh
