I don't know what to put as a title to be honest!

Have you ever fallen in love, and, kinda wished you weren't?

Like not because of who you're in love with

But because of your lifestyle?

I have.


When ever I like some one I always think its great at first but then I start to doubt it all and over think everything and then I think no I won't tell her because she won't like me back

Well I really want to tell the girl I like that I like her

But I don't want to loose her as a friend


Like if she saw this post and it explained it all to her or maybe one of the other posts that I've written about her

But I really want to be with her, but I know that because of my line of work I won't get to see her often and I don't want to put her through that, not that she'd want to be with me in the first place


It's really bugging me, it makes me feel sick

I really like her

And I want to tell her, but I don't want to loose her because of it

I suppose some one could tell her for me, but thats cowardly

Maybe someone could drop a hint?

Or I could find out what she thinks of me from one of her friends


Meh